Get a life!

I find it quite interesting that some people can perceive things totally differently that what it was meant to be. Now, why is that so? I thought what I wrote was perfectly clear.How can anyone misunderstood that simple sentence? After some thinking on my part I realised that how we perceive and understand things are totally dependent on our life experience and the memory 'database' that we already have. In other words it depends on our world view (or that German word that I cannot spell). Our life experience and the memories that we have is shaped by the environment and relationships that we have with people around us. This means that if we mix with a particular set of people only and live only in a certain environment then we might have a certain fixed way of looking at things which we perceive as being right (hence the rest of the world are wrong). So, if we do not want to react like jerks to things that was only meant as a joke....we must broaden our horizons, mix around and experience life!

Rain

It is raining right now. The sound that it makes as it hits the window panes brings back wonderful memories. I have always loved the rain. For me rain brings promises of new things to come. It brings hope and life. It brings back memories of my childhood when my sisters and I used to huddle close together eating boiled tapioca and fish crackers. A wierd combination but very tasty all the same. Rain reminds me of my last day of school when I had to say goodbye to the best friends that I ever had. And of course it reminds me of Swalk, Melody Fair and Mark Lester with his cherry red lips.

life as it is

late at night
questions in my mind
beautiful faces
wonderful smiles
horrible masks
terrible secrets
life as it is

Judge and jury

Taking charge and responsibility for something is a hard thing to do. Even though you thought you had done the best with the best of intentions, sometimes things still do not come out as you intend it to be. The sad thing is that it is always too easy for other people to judge you and your actions. They criticise and, rant and rave about the mistakes that they deemed you made with no regard whatsoever for your feelings.The only saving grace is that you know deep down that what you are doing is based on commitment and the fact that it is something that you have to do because it is your job to do so. At least you did not run away from that!

All is gone now

All is gone now
The long walks
The cosy lunches
The promise of a future
The hopes of tomorrow
The whole world at our feet

All is gone now
All but memories
of broken promises
of shattered dreams

All is gone now
No castles to build
No children to nurture
No family to honour

Picking up the pieces
tears in my eyes
Picking up the pieces
pain in my heart
Picking up the pieces
laughter in your voice

For you
I am just something
That happened along the way

aches and pain

So, here I am all washed up and tired to the bones. I had been typing and typing like nobody's business trying to finish all my assignments on time. All the while there is this little voice inside my head saying....why, why, why.....
Why on earth do I subject myself to all this ache and sleepless nights? For a few dollars more? For fame and fortune?
hmmm I honestly don't know. And you know what? I don't give a damn.

Not exactly the rain...but I guess it will do

To scream or to cry

The winner takes it all. The loser has to fall. Its simple and its plain...why should I complain.

It is a sad day for me when something that was started from nothing has now come full circle and is being reduced into nothing. Someone has succeeded in driving us to the ground. And I hope he will live to see the day when he will realize that he has made the biggest mistake in his life. As for me....que sera sera.

on leave

Woke up with a nasty headache. Must be the pizza and all that cheese last night. I do have this love hate relationship with cheese. I love it but my body somehow hate it. Well, I suppose that will be my reason for not going to work today. Hence I applied for an emergency leave. Lucky for me I have the nicest h.o.d in my fac. So, here I am trying to have a rest and get things in perspective. However, that is easier said than done. Because right now even on leave I find myself thinking about the book chapter that I have to finish by Dec 15th. So, that got me thinking about ICT and SMEs. And since it is nearing the end of the year....it got me thinking about my lack of achievements during this year....oh well there goes my chances of making the payrise. So, I guess it is not a real 'cuti' afterall....with all those thoughts about work buzzing away in my head!

Birthday

It is my daughter's 11th birthday today. We usually do not have fancy parties to celebrate birthdays. Usually it is just a few of Sakinah's friends sharing a cake. So, today was no different except that we have two pizzas courtesy of Nora and in addition to the cake we have half a water melon. Sakinah looks happy enough and Shukri looked full enough!

raindrops

face it

I was trying to find my old friends on facebook when it suddenly hit upon me that I am too old to have friends on facebook. Just as well I suppose. I don't think I am the facebook kind anyway. That is why I am here, blogging. Hi, I am Saloma (or rather my husband calls me Saloma...I don't know why...but he does :) ) I am in my late forties and I am married with three children. I live in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia and I am currently in the academic line. Being a lecturer in the current academic climate in Malaysia is not a bed of roses. I do feel stressed out most of the time...hence the facebook thing.